New journal, felt necessary.
this is an entry i've been meaning to post for a while.
I've spent some time analyzing Rory's relationship with boys. Dean was very interesting to Rory, mostly because he actually noticed her. He was more mature in relationships then the other boys in her shcool as well. Also, he adored and was devoted to her. He treated her very well and made her feel special to everyone else. But, he obviously wasn't perfect. When it came to education and inteligince, he really wasn't at her level. Plus, he had an anger and jealousy problem that was annoying as hell. He also had no real goals or purpose. Dependable Dean became boring and regular by the time Jess came into the picture. Jess was a lot like the new Tristan. Tristan was the good looking 'bad boy' who also happened to be smart and rich. He had fallen for Rory, but of course Dean was in the way, and before Rory realized she could've had something different with Tristan he was gone. Then here comes Jess, who was way more on Rory's level of inteligence and challenges her in her wit in a friendly way. He is also dubbed 'dangerous' which is of course interesting (and happens to be incredibly gorgeous). He is hostile towards everyone besides Rory, whom he actually shows care for. Jess continues to fight for Rory's attention without being entirely clear or at all forceful to having a better relationship. Rory realizes how much better Jess is then good boy Dean when shes alone with jess, especially in "A Tisket, A Tasket" and finds herself defending Jess after the car accident. When she feels lost and unimportant, she skips off school (which is totaly not Rory like) to go see Jess in New York, risking not being there for her best friend and Mother, which obviously shows how much she cares about him and enjoys being with him. Dean has really been boring her with his regularity, anger, jelousy, and lack of inteligence. I think seeing Lorelai and Christopher so happy togethered to her showed her that relationships should have a lot of passion in it, even if its long-awaited. Jess showing up at Sookies wedding showed her that he still cared about her as much as she did for him, and took the chance and chose between Jess and Dean right then and there when she kissed him. But this choice scared her off to Washington D.C., mainly because she was afraid of confronting her first boyfriend of a year. Then, seeing Jess with someone else forced her into the arms of Dependable Dean. Jess and Rorys friendship was ruined because they both were so hurt and unwilling to confess how they felt for eachother. Rory knew she wasn't in love with Dean anymore, but she wanted the realiablity. Im sure all of us have been in relationships like that. She showed how she wasn't feeling for Dean anymore when she was dyeing Lanes hair, and Lane was going on about how perfect Rory and Dean were and Rory remained silent and her face showed the truth. It was extremely obvious when Rory exploded at Jess's "girlfriend", egged his car and constantly threw Dean in front of him. Dean himself finally had to give up when she had a rant with Jess at the dance marathon, shifting Dean aside unless she was infront of Jess and his "girlfriend". Rory must have gotten over Dean while still dating him, because after he broke it off she wasted no time telling Jess the truth, and then dating him. She began crying on Lorelais shoulder because an era of her life was over, two years of a reliable boyfriend was gone. Rory and Jess obviously felt very strong for eachother, and Rory was even ready to give her virginity up to him. But Jess had a lot of problems in his life. Luke had been the only one who had really belived in Jess and cared about him and showed it, and that mattered to Jess even if he didn't show it. When Luke told him how his life was going down the drain and kicked him out, Jess was shattered. If Rory knew the truth, Jess knew that he would loose her in the same painful way, he wasn't ready to talk about it anyways. And when his father showed up, he realized how much he didn't know about who he is and what he was going to do now. Rory had so much going for her, and all Jess had was Rory. He left, and sacrificed what he and Rory had left. Rorys heart was broken, and she could barely show it because people would tell her "i told you so". It wasn't long before Rory realized she needed to move on, and told the silent phone Jess that, telling him her feelings (that she loved him), but the truth, that their future was shattered. Her dating failed miserably after that. She also saw Dean getting nmarried, something she could have had. She felt drawn to this because this is what Jess had not been for her, stable and reliable. When jess came back, she seemed to want to talk to him but of course it was awkward for him, he must have known how much he hurt her, the only thing he loved. Jess told her he loved her and just left, which was a horrible move, showing Rory that he still couldn't be there. But it also was a step, talking about his feelings (which you would never excepct from the brooding badboy). Rory still had feelings for Jess but wanted the reliability that was with Dean, and was too afraid to leave with Jess when he came back for her. she later addmited to lane that she wanted to go, but knew he would probably leave her again. Dean, of course, had never gotten over her, and was there when she wanted reliabilty. But he wasn't as stupid anymore, he realized that their highschool romance was just that, in the past and over. Rory felt she just kept loosing everything, and there was logan to stand by her side. Logan is a combination of Jess and Tristan, confusing, gorogeous, rich, smart, and interested. Rory just wants to have a "fling" with him, so that there will be no more heartbreak, no more leaving or cheating or erratic visits. But she has never got that before, i doubt Logan could give that to her now. He obviously sees that she is something different, and if Jess can do it, why can't Logan?
But it doesn't matter, because jess is coming back. I am completely convinced Jess will be back, their story can not be over. It just can't, Rory was the only thing that Jess ever loved or cared about.